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My Experience: Melanie Martinez Concert

Published August 1, 2016 by makeuponatightbudget

Recently I went to a Melanie Martinez concert at the Cleveland House of Blues. The HOB isn’t my favorite venue as it’s General Admission and I’m short. It’s hard for me to see things and see over people. I much prefer having seats because at least the levels are graduated and if possible I can stand on the seats to see things better. I made an entire post about my outfit and makeup at my beauty blog which you can visit here.

I thought the doors opened at 6 pm so my friend and I decided to leave around 4:30 or so. I live about a little over an hour from Cleveland. We actually ended up leaving at 4 pm and arriving at around 5:30. This was both a good thing and a bad thing because there was already a line to get in (and of course because it’s Gen Admission, where you are in line matters) around the corner from the doors. People had been lining up probably around 3 or 4 pm, some maybe earlier than that. My friend paid the extra 20 bucks to park in the parking garage that was down the street from the venue. We were kind of concerned about walking to the car at night in Cleveland so we were glad to find a space in the garage. Where we were in line wasn’t too bad and the line kept on getting longer and longer. The show was completely sold out. And on top of that there was an Indians game that very day too. Tuesday was such a weird day to have a concert.

I ended up standing for more than 2 hours outside. I didn’t want to sit down and get anything on my dress and I wore 3 or 4 in boots because they were the only shoes I had that matched. They’re comfortable shoes but standing in one spot for a long period of time goes straight to my heels and makes my feet hurt so bad. Apparently the doors didn’t open until 7pm, so like I said blessing and a curse that we got there early.

Eventually we got into the venue and I didn’t really get a good spot. I could barely see. Almost everyone in the audience was a teenager, with braces, and being overly excited and vlogging about the experience. I hate that her main fanbase is literally 12-18 year olds. It made me and my friend feel like we were the only two adults there voluntarily, while the other adults were like…parents watching their children. On top of that all these stupid teenage girls were freakishly tall and I couldn’t see a damn thing. By the time we actually got into the venue my feet were killing me. During the opening act, which was Handsome Ghost (some hipster neo emo group I’ve never heard of but were actually pretty decent) I took off my shoes and just stayed barefoot until Melanie came on. The cool thing was that during the break between sets the HOB staff handed out plastic cups of water to the concert goers for free. It was a really hot day and all of us were crowded in such a small space. The water was ice cold and ridiculously refreshing and appreciated. I thought this was really cool of the HOB to do. The bar also set out small cups of water for people to take freely.

Around 8 o clock or so Melanie’s set started. There was like a 3-5 minute intro that seemed to last forever. I didn’t actually get to see her when she popped out the crib but the HOB Cleveland page actually posted it.

Like I said I’m too short and was struggling to see most things. I had to experience half the concert through other people’s cellphones. Melanie doesn’t talk much in between songs so she preformed the whole concert in almost complete silence. She said a few things here and there though. Everyone sang along of course. My absolute favorite song is Pity Party and I was so ecstatic to hear it live. I capture a few good videos on my phone actually and posted them to my Instagram.

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I think her performance was really good, there was only a few issues with the mic like make once or twice where feedback came out and she seemed to be always fixing her ear piece but I think she always does that. I’m not sure. I thought her outfit was so cute! I would wear it myself. Vocally I think she sounded great! She moves around a little awkwardly but Melanie is an awkward person. Her songs aren’t really dance songs either so it’s not going to be like JLo doing an entire dance number. I think it’s part of her charm and her realism.

Before the encore songs there was a random gap in the crowd and I was wondering why no one was filing it. I decided to step up and found out the hard way that it was because someone had puked and of course no one wanted to step in it. I think i stepped in it a little but it didn’t get all over my shoes, didn’t really make my shoes smell and after not being close enough to see Melanie clearly throughout the entirety of the concert I really didn’t care. The smell in general was pretty much masked and I didn’t find it to be a big deal. Everyone else of course was grossed out by it and my friend insisted that when I got into her car I set my shoes on a plastic bag. Which i get but my shoes weren’t covered in vomit. I barely stepped in it actually. She was so worried that she was going to catch some sickness or disease from it and I was like ok you’re overreacting a bit. We eventually stopped at a gas station and I  wiped the soles of my shoes with some soap and water then washed my hands twice, just so she wouldn’t complain or anything.

What I didn’t like was that even with the 2 encore performances of Gingerbread Man and Cake the entire concert was like an hour and a half (not including the break between for set up) and Melanie’s set was only 1 hour. It felt like it was over as soon as it started. I assume this might be due to 1. She doesn’t talk much or interact and 2. she only has one album out and she did play almost the entirety of it. Once she creates another album I’m sure the concerts will be a bit longer. I would love to go see her again when she comes to town with new music and hopefully she might be in a bigger venue (or at least one with seats). After the concert was over I went to check the line for merch but it was all over the place and Hot Topic has a decent selection of her stuff for cheaper. So I just passed on that and instead went home. After standing 5 and a half hours I just wanted to lay down and sleep.

This was my first concert of the summer and the first one I had been to since October of last year. It wasn’t perfect but I enjoyed myself. This was much better than the concert I had later on in the week but more on that later.


Ohayocon 2016

Published January 22, 2016 by makeuponatightbudget

Last weekend I went to Ohayocon in Columbus, Ohio. I’ve got to say that this con was fairly disappointing when it comes to panels. Out of 3 days I only went to around 5 panels, which is really bad for a 3 day con. For two out of the three days I dressed up; Friday was Lolita day and Saturday I dress up as Super Sonico. I made a post on my makeup blog on how I did the makeup for both looks. Friday was a decent day. After much struggling and going back and forth, my sister drove me to Columbus, two hours from where I live. My ex goes to school there so I stayed with her. Every year it always seems like a big mistake because she usually makes the con horrible for me but eventually things evened out. Neither I or my sister could afford an extra badge for her (i had pre-ordered mine) and so she had to wander around the con being bored for several hours while I did stuff. I felt really bad and annoyed that my ex wouldn’t let her stay in her place to rest while we were at the con. it just seemed really stupid. To make up for it I set out to get her a bunch of Sailor Mercury stuff from the dealer’s room and a few things from Bioshock (her fave video game franchise). I also paid for the parking ticket, our food, and gas (another reason why I didn’t have money for her badge).

Friday was a pretty chill day. I went to a panel about BJD’s (ball jointed dolls). It was my first BJD panel and I was super excited to meet other people who had the same hobby/interest as me. I haven’t been in the bjd hobby for long but I still love it. I made some new friends with Maria and her wife Gabi. I got to ogle her gorgeous Mini Me doll of Bill Kaulitz, too. The BJD panel’s were my favorite as well as the Steven Universe panel.

I was super nervous about dressing in Lolita too. Not only did I wear two sports bras, two pairs of spanx, and pantyhose, but I had a heavy wig on also. I was afraid someone was going to like say I didn’t make a good lolita or something. Not that I would’ve actually cared but i’ve heard that people in both the bjd and lolita community can sometimes be assholes. But i had a few compliments here and there and even got called a “pretty lolita” in passing. I was really happy. On Friday I also went to the Girls Generation Panel, which is my 2nd time going. I love that panel because it’s always fun to dance to GG, and i love Kpop. It’s a win win situation. But let me tell you, dancing in Lolita gear is no joke! I was sweating, my spanx kept falling down (layering spanx is apparently not a good idea as the materials slide against one another) and my feet were hurting in my 3 in heeled boots. I took them off during the dance but I had been wearing them all day so my feet were pooped.

Saturday I dress as Super Sonico. I hand sewed the vest from scratch (meaning I got yards of fabric and cut things out). It was the hardest thing i’ve ever done but also the best. it actually functioned, looked cute and I was very happy with my cosplay. I even got a few people to take my picture. The best thing was that I actually got 2 Sonico figures as well. That was my goal for the dealer’s room. Get a sonico figure. It was ahead everything else and I’m really happy with my purchases. I also got a lot of things from artist alley. Like I said, I didn’t go to many panels so I spent most of my time in the dealer’s room, artist alley, avoiding furries, and sitting down to rest my feet. I wanted to keep my sister company too, so I met up with her anytime I wasn’t busy.

Sunday I was in and out of the con really quick. it started to get colder and I had to be home to help my cousin’s girlfriend dye her hair. I had commissioned the awesome Consuelo over at Cogs and Creatures to make me and SD size beanie and t-shirt for my boy doll who had been naked ever since I got his body off layaway. She was super awesome! Anyway I ran in, spent a few more in artist alley then headed off towards North Market. North Market is my favorite place to it. It has the best pizza, pierogi’s and macarons! I just had to take my sister there to taste the awesome food. The guy working the parking lot ticket both was a prick though. He gave us attitude and a hard time because we didn’t get a stamp from inside, saying that we actually parked in the lot to go to North Market. I had forgotten you had to do this as I don’t freakin’ live in Columbus or go to North Market constantly. I would usually walk there anyway. Anyway he gave us attitude about it and was a complete dick. But after all that we were on our way home.

I wish this year had been better, panel and con wise. Last year I did a lot more stuff. I’m hoping to go to Colossalcon this summer so I have no idea if i’ll be able to go to ohayocon next year but we’ll see. I made a quick slideshow of some of the pictures and videos I took at the con. Hope you enjoy!

Adventures in Online Dating Part 5

Published January 15, 2016 by makeuponatightbudget

MAN I GOT SOME GOOD STUFF FOR YOU GUYS TODAY!!!! An entire conversation!!


Its 4:30am. I need to go to sleep because i have to get up for a ohayocon tomorrow. But at least there is a beacon of light keeping me up, a fuckboy in the distance. Behold the slutshaming!!



Now you may ask, why did i respond? Two reasons: one, it WAS FUNNY AS ALL HELL OMFG and two, i always love a good shade throwing session and brin5ing down men. It’s good for the soul. But it gets better.





My response was truly a vision of sarcasm.


So you understand hes a pathetic lowlife asshole right. BUT








It only gets more vulgar, so be warned. Im not sure if this is making him laugh as much as i am. He seems to be trying but he could also just be a large troll. But this is the reality of the minds that some men have when it comes to women.


He proceeded to say that my response was “grahpic” as opposed to what he said beforehand??? Yep, definitely makes sense.

I’ll probably add onto this post as it gets more ridiculous. See if you have a good laugh too.

Adventures in Online Dating Part 4

Published December 13, 2015 by makeuponatightbudget


I had several conversations with the fuckboy and I shouldve known from the getgo that he was a piece of shit. Exhibit A: I told him not to call be “babe” and he does it just to annoy me. Not cute.


Exhibit B: i talk about my onesie pjs (kigurumi) and i get this. I wanted to mentally slap myself.


You’re just trying to hard. And i dont fall for the “nice guy” image at all. Trust me, the site this comes from doesnt allow for that, so i have to be even morr cautious. When it comes to turning away someone, i look at their profiles to see if they have anything written on theres and if we have things in common, then i check the pictures to see if im attracted to them. Im pretty sure this guy had nothing and his lame pickup line (because yes, you are in fact trying a horrible pickup attempt)about spiders webs and whatnots didnt work. Sorrynotsorry.


How ive “become” asexual? Like its some fucking magical girl transformstion! I hate when people ask me shit like this and make me seem like im some failing science experiment. There’s google for a reason and personal boundaries for another. I wanted to punch this guy in the face so bad. I could go down the whole “he meant well” route but i dont really give a damn.


NO ONE AND I MEAN NO ONE should ever message someone this as the first like. Youre also 41 and without a picture, you disgusting creep.


DONT call me baby. Second verse same as the first. Youre old, creepy, and disgusting. And what do I fucking care if youre queer???


Again, my profile states do NOT open up with “Hello, sexy, beautiful, cutie, etc” and again men think it’s real cute to open up that way just to piss me off. Other than that, what the absolute fuck is happening in this message?? Like if youre goal was to not sound like a serial killer you failed, miserably. That isnt really something to joke about either. It just sounds like all kinds of kidnappings gone wrong.

Wtf is wrong with people??

Adventures in Online Dating part 3

Published November 20, 2015 by makeuponatightbudget


Short and to the point but also gross. You shouldn’t open with something that sounds possessive and grossly sexual. This was from an older woman that i had no interest in even going near.


Also from a woman. This is just weird. I didnt even know how to respond to that, thank god i didnt.


I dont know if he was trying to get me to join a cult or he was trying to say that because i’m so great that he assumed i worshipped satan. Theyre were many ways i wanted to respond such as i’ll need to disembowel you for a ritual, givw me your first born son, i only take virgin blood for sacrifices, or i can pencil you in after my 5 o clock with lucifer. I couldnt decide so i didnt respond:p


Welp. You tried. Nerdy pick up lines can be great except when i dont find you attractive enough to capture my attention. Hey, ive got to have something good to look at if im going to be in a relationship.


I really hate when men refer to me as a girl. They cant help it since they dont know im agender but it always rubs me the wrong way. But this is a prime example of coming on wayyyyyy too strong. I mean, im thirstt but not that thirsty.This person was also out of my age range and had a kid, two things i dont deal with.


Here is a person that i talked to for a long time. I was comfortable with him and he seemed to be a really good friend. I was telling him about my cat who is dying and this is how he responded. Can you say fuckboy?

My First Ball Jointed Doll

Published November 10, 2015 by makeuponatightbudget

Hello Everyone!

It’s been quite awhile since I took to blogging thanks to the wonderous joys of being a college senior. I’ve have had some time to do things but I just fill that up with sleeping and crying. It’s amazing…not. However through all the stress there is one thing that does make me happy and that’s my ball jointed doll.

Ever since I was a little kid, I’ve always played with dolls; Barbies, Bratz, Betty Spaghetti, MyScene, you name I played with it. So it makes sense that I fell into the BJD hobby. At first I thought they were creepy though. I have never really seen a doll so big before, other than the “lifesize” Barbie dolls that were like 100 cm tall.

The story of how I got my first doll is a bit “all over the place” if you will so I’ll actually save that for another post since it relates to another topic in the BJD world. This post will focus solely on Natty.

The website I brought her from is, which is an excellent source for licensed dolls. The best part of it all is that they ship within the U.S (they’re based in California) so it only takes a few days to get your new baby. I chose to go to the “1/4” scale, usually referred to as MSD. These dolls are usually 42-45 cm tall (around 16 to 17 inches). The brand of my dolls is Mystic Kids, the model name is Natalia, which I’ve shortened to Natty.

Now most people give their dolls personalities, characters, love interests and partners. I however don’t connect to my doll in that way. I dress her up, brush her hair, and take pretty pictures of her, similar to how I did with my other dolls as a child. Except this one is special because she cost $250. Yep, BJD’s are not cheap. They’re very pretty but not cheap at all. But she’s my treasure and I say she’s worth the  hundreds of dollars I’ve invested in her.

This is the company photo. Because BJD is so expensive you can opt out of pieces and parts. The different parts are usually Skintone (different skin tones add on more costs), Face-Up (a term used to describe your doll actually have a painted face. They are usually blank heads; this is always around $30-$60 more) and standard outfit and wig the doll comes in. This was Natty’s standard outfit and wig

I did not get this outfit however. I got the regular skin tone she comes in and a Faceup. Shipping was around $20 because the dolls are fairly heavy. They are made out of resin which is a heavy plastic.

And so Natty arrived to me naked (minus a cheap pair of cotton undies and tube top) like a new born baby.

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The face up picture came out blurry and since then I’ve done a new face up on her. Her eyes are a nice violet color too.

I got several outfits for her now and have been crafting a bunch of accessories for her. I can’t wait to make more posts about her. This one was just a basic beginning post to show how the doll arrived to me. Since then I’ve put another doll on layaway, this time a boy! I’ll be doing another post on him later on!

Adventures in Online Dating Part 2

Published August 24, 2015 by makeuponatightbudget


What the hell am I going to do with your ass in Egypt?? Also dont mention anything about “creeping” on a page. It’s well….creepy.


Got to love sexual harassment and inappropriate messages.


He later on apologized for his opening line and realized it was rude, so not that bad.



A two-parter! He said he was into ‘kinky sex’ while i casually asked him what some of his other interests were. I asked him to what degree and he gave me a very vanilla response to which i further tried to explain the actual other aspects of BDSM (something im an advocate of teaching about, including safety, asexuality in BDSM and other topics). He responded with ‘Yuck’ calling my lifestyle and interests as well as what i love teaching about disgusting. Yep. Good Job.


Like he Undertaker….


We’ll finish up with a solid inappropriate message. Oh joy.