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My SD Boy Doll Journey

Published February 5, 2016 by makeuponatightbudget

I say journey because it’s definitely felt like one. It all started with following a few doll collectors and people in the BJD hobby on Instagram. One of them was selling a Little Rebel Seven head for around $190-ish. I don’t know why I wanted to buy this floating head but one thing lead to another and I put my first layaway on a doll (she was gracious enough to do a layaway with me). Now I know there are people who buy heads with the intent of getting bodies for them eventually. I don’t like eventuallys, If I was going to get a head I was also going to get a boy body. She recommended an Fdoll V2 body, which is available on The skin tone I needed however was out of stock. So I got one that I thought would be the next best thing, which was pink (the head is Light Normal). I was impatient and didn’t want to wait for the Light Normal body to be in stock, so I went ahead with the Pink body and put it on layaway. I had two layaways and about $400 or so dollars to pay off. It was fairly easy as the payments weren’t synced up and there was enough time apart where I wouldn’t get slammed with 2 payments at once.

The head did come first, I never got a picture of the original faceup. It was good, better than what I could do, a little bit too heavy black shadow around the eyes and not too much details. I decided to look into doing my second faceup, my first full face up (the first attempt was building off the original faceup of my Mystic Kids Natalia, adding eyeshadows and lipstick basically). After purchasing some essentials for faceup removal on VOLKS USA website, i scrubbed him clean.

I had seen a lot of people with fem boy dolls. I had seen so much of it that I really began to hate the idea. It’s really not my cup of tea. I decided that my doll was going to be manly. I wanted to give him a bit of a hipster style too. So I added a beard.



A frontal view

Eventually I think I’ll redo the eyes but it do like most of the faceup. I think the harsh edges on the eye shading is whats bother me. And i’d like it to be a bit more realistic. Other than that I love the beard and his little beauty mark 🙂 So the head was done, time to pay off the body.

I got the body January 2016 a few days after my last payment. The head is more yellow than the body (naturally with the resin color not really due to yellowing). So the resin doesn’t match but there’s hardly a difference. You can see in the picture that for the most part the resins match it’s just a matter of the undertones, one is pink and the other is yellow. But i figured with wearing clothes, you wouldn’t really be able to tell.

So i had the body, I had the head, did the faceup, now it was time for clothes and mods. This doll was going to be my experiment doll. I wanted to put piercings and tattoos on him. As you can see , he already has a nose ring a lip piercing. I had some earrings on him but they kept falling off. I’ve also created gauges for him but I haven’t gotten around to putting them on him yet. I did get all his tattoos done. He has a sleeve, a chest piece, one on the back of his neck, back, thighs, and ankles.

The piercings were done by cutting a jump ring in half with some nail clippers, taking the shape in a bit by squeezing the ends closer together and to create a more rounded shape. Then I used tacky glue to stick it on. For the tattoos, I used printable tattoo paper that I got at JoAnn Fabrics. Each pack only comes with one sheet, but when you think about the size of your doll compared to a human, one sheet is all you need. I fit a lot of the tattoos I wanted on a single sheet. You simply find the image you want, print it, add a layer of sealant to the area when the tattoo is going to be on your doll, apply the tattoo with water as you normally would, then add a final layer of sealant. Apply the tattoos away from joints as the tattoos will gunk them up. You also want to make sure that water doesn’t fall into the joints and get on the string used to keep the body together. Apply the tattoo with circular motions as well as up and down strokes. Sometimes air bubbles can appear, so trying to smooth everything out before hand will help to prevent that. I had a few air bubble myself and had to reprint and reapply the tattoo again.



He has a horror movie themed sleeve

After a while and not really having money to buy him clothes (i’m really bad at making clothes myself) I went to Ohayocon. There were a few people I was able to buy some clothes from, so he’s finally clothed! Here is just one of his outfits.


Later on I was able to get him some other stuff online.

The next battle was the wig. I got a wig on ebay for $12. It had a few layers of split pink and blue hair then the rest was an auburn-ish color. I first cut the pink and blue layer down to the length I wanted then the auburn I tried leaving longer. I’m no hairstylist. I usually hack my way through a wig even though I try to go layer by layer, none of it turns out even or looks right. Like I said, the hair wouldn’t hold for a bun in a hair tie so I cut it shorter. Eventually I kept cutting and cutting until I got the hair you see on the doll. It looks alright with the beanie on but if you take it off the wig just looks like a mess (because it is). I don’t know what really possessed me to buy this wig. I think it was probably because I was looking for something cheap that I could get easy. I had good intentions for it but in the end I ended up hating it. I have now ordered a black fur wig which i hope is easier to style and not really have bangs. I think the wig he has on now makes him look too feminine, especially with the color, bangs, and style. It also doesn’t match his facial hair so that’s a problem.

Overall he needs more clothes. He needs basic and non patterned pants and a few non patterned t shirts. All his pants are checkered patterns and all his tshirts are stripped, i don’t know how that happened. He does have a white shirt and plain grey cardigan though. I would just need to get some jeans or black (non harem style) pants.

As for poseablility, he can’t stand on his own and his body flops around all over the place. It’s so frustrating. And somehow his ass always pops out more than needed and it makes him look like he has scoliosis. It’s difficult to stand him up on his own and do things but sitting poses are ok. He can slouch as well. The arms don’t stay in more natural poses either. They snap back into a place that’s comfortable for them, which is frustrating for me. I really hate it. I don’t think I’d get and FDoll boy body again. I might try to get floating bodies from different companies and hope that it works better. My other doll can stand on her own more. I’ve thought about sueding the joints but I don’t know how to do that and I’m too afraid I’ll mess something up. I might do it eventually.

I don’t think that SD’s are my doll size of choice. I think they’re too big and clunky. I see a lot more clothes for MSD and MNF, and I really like my MSD doll more. I think I might sell the boy doll one day but as for now I do like him and he is really cute. I think once I get everything situated with him he will appeal to me a bit more. I think i’d feel guilty for selling him though. Right now he’s kind of just boy with normal boy fashion. And Luna is like kawaii, lolita, pastel fashion which I think can offer me more creativity. I still do want a badass boy character though. He’s like dark, mysterious, a giant nerd. It’s perfect. AS you can see I’m on the fence about it haha. I do love him though and can imagine myself cuddling this chunk of plastic and going to bed. Plus putting Luna beside him makes him look like a big brother and that’s cute too. I think I can punk up his style too.

Sighs….I’m a hot mess, just like him.


Ohayocon 2016

Published January 22, 2016 by makeuponatightbudget

Last weekend I went to Ohayocon in Columbus, Ohio. I’ve got to say that this con was fairly disappointing when it comes to panels. Out of 3 days I only went to around 5 panels, which is really bad for a 3 day con. For two out of the three days I dressed up; Friday was Lolita day and Saturday I dress up as Super Sonico. I made a post on my makeup blog on how I did the makeup for both looks. Friday was a decent day. After much struggling and going back and forth, my sister drove me to Columbus, two hours from where I live. My ex goes to school there so I stayed with her. Every year it always seems like a big mistake because she usually makes the con horrible for me but eventually things evened out. Neither I or my sister could afford an extra badge for her (i had pre-ordered mine) and so she had to wander around the con being bored for several hours while I did stuff. I felt really bad and annoyed that my ex wouldn’t let her stay in her place to rest while we were at the con. it just seemed really stupid. To make up for it I set out to get her a bunch of Sailor Mercury stuff from the dealer’s room and a few things from Bioshock (her fave video game franchise). I also paid for the parking ticket, our food, and gas (another reason why I didn’t have money for her badge).

Friday was a pretty chill day. I went to a panel about BJD’s (ball jointed dolls). It was my first BJD panel and I was super excited to meet other people who had the same hobby/interest as me. I haven’t been in the bjd hobby for long but I still love it. I made some new friends with Maria and her wife Gabi. I got to ogle her gorgeous Mini Me doll of Bill Kaulitz, too. The BJD panel’s were my favorite as well as the Steven Universe panel.

I was super nervous about dressing in Lolita too. Not only did I wear two sports bras, two pairs of spanx, and pantyhose, but I had a heavy wig on also. I was afraid someone was going to like say I didn’t make a good lolita or something. Not that I would’ve actually cared but i’ve heard that people in both the bjd and lolita community can sometimes be assholes. But i had a few compliments here and there and even got called a “pretty lolita” in passing. I was really happy. On Friday I also went to the Girls Generation Panel, which is my 2nd time going. I love that panel because it’s always fun to dance to GG, and i love Kpop. It’s a win win situation. But let me tell you, dancing in Lolita gear is no joke! I was sweating, my spanx kept falling down (layering spanx is apparently not a good idea as the materials slide against one another) and my feet were hurting in my 3 in heeled boots. I took them off during the dance but I had been wearing them all day so my feet were pooped.

Saturday I dress as Super Sonico. I hand sewed the vest from scratch (meaning I got yards of fabric and cut things out). It was the hardest thing i’ve ever done but also the best. it actually functioned, looked cute and I was very happy with my cosplay. I even got a few people to take my picture. The best thing was that I actually got 2 Sonico figures as well. That was my goal for the dealer’s room. Get a sonico figure. It was ahead everything else and I’m really happy with my purchases. I also got a lot of things from artist alley. Like I said, I didn’t go to many panels so I spent most of my time in the dealer’s room, artist alley, avoiding furries, and sitting down to rest my feet. I wanted to keep my sister company too, so I met up with her anytime I wasn’t busy.

Sunday I was in and out of the con really quick. it started to get colder and I had to be home to help my cousin’s girlfriend dye her hair. I had commissioned the awesome Consuelo over at Cogs and Creatures to make me and SD size beanie and t-shirt for my boy doll who had been naked ever since I got his body off layaway. She was super awesome! Anyway I ran in, spent a few more in artist alley then headed off towards North Market. North Market is my favorite place to it. It has the best pizza, pierogi’s and macarons! I just had to take my sister there to taste the awesome food. The guy working the parking lot ticket both was a prick though. He gave us attitude and a hard time because we didn’t get a stamp from inside, saying that we actually parked in the lot to go to North Market. I had forgotten you had to do this as I don’t freakin’ live in Columbus or go to North Market constantly. I would usually walk there anyway. Anyway he gave us attitude about it and was a complete dick. But after all that we were on our way home.

I wish this year had been better, panel and con wise. Last year I did a lot more stuff. I’m hoping to go to Colossalcon this summer so I have no idea if i’ll be able to go to ohayocon next year but we’ll see. I made a quick slideshow of some of the pictures and videos I took at the con. Hope you enjoy!

Adventures in Online Dating Part 5

Published January 15, 2016 by makeuponatightbudget

MAN I GOT SOME GOOD STUFF FOR YOU GUYS TODAY!!!! An entire conversation!!


Its 4:30am. I need to go to sleep because i have to get up for a ohayocon tomorrow. But at least there is a beacon of light keeping me up, a fuckboy in the distance. Behold the slutshaming!!



Now you may ask, why did i respond? Two reasons: one, it WAS FUNNY AS ALL HELL OMFG and two, i always love a good shade throwing session and brin5ing down men. It’s good for the soul. But it gets better.





My response was truly a vision of sarcasm.


So you understand hes a pathetic lowlife asshole right. BUT








It only gets more vulgar, so be warned. Im not sure if this is making him laugh as much as i am. He seems to be trying but he could also just be a large troll. But this is the reality of the minds that some men have when it comes to women.


He proceeded to say that my response was “grahpic” as opposed to what he said beforehand??? Yep, definitely makes sense.

I’ll probably add onto this post as it gets more ridiculous. See if you have a good laugh too.

Adventures in Online Dating Part 4

Published December 13, 2015 by makeuponatightbudget


I had several conversations with the fuckboy and I shouldve known from the getgo that he was a piece of shit. Exhibit A: I told him not to call be “babe” and he does it just to annoy me. Not cute.


Exhibit B: i talk about my onesie pjs (kigurumi) and i get this. I wanted to mentally slap myself.


You’re just trying to hard. And i dont fall for the “nice guy” image at all. Trust me, the site this comes from doesnt allow for that, so i have to be even morr cautious. When it comes to turning away someone, i look at their profiles to see if they have anything written on theres and if we have things in common, then i check the pictures to see if im attracted to them. Im pretty sure this guy had nothing and his lame pickup line (because yes, you are in fact trying a horrible pickup attempt)about spiders webs and whatnots didnt work. Sorrynotsorry.


How ive “become” asexual? Like its some fucking magical girl transformstion! I hate when people ask me shit like this and make me seem like im some failing science experiment. There’s google for a reason and personal boundaries for another. I wanted to punch this guy in the face so bad. I could go down the whole “he meant well” route but i dont really give a damn.


NO ONE AND I MEAN NO ONE should ever message someone this as the first like. Youre also 41 and without a picture, you disgusting creep.


DONT call me baby. Second verse same as the first. Youre old, creepy, and disgusting. And what do I fucking care if youre queer???


Again, my profile states do NOT open up with “Hello, sexy, beautiful, cutie, etc” and again men think it’s real cute to open up that way just to piss me off. Other than that, what the absolute fuck is happening in this message?? Like if youre goal was to not sound like a serial killer you failed, miserably. That isnt really something to joke about either. It just sounds like all kinds of kidnappings gone wrong.

Wtf is wrong with people??

Adventures in Online Dating Part 2

Published August 24, 2015 by makeuponatightbudget


What the hell am I going to do with your ass in Egypt?? Also dont mention anything about “creeping” on a page. It’s well….creepy.


Got to love sexual harassment and inappropriate messages.


He later on apologized for his opening line and realized it was rude, so not that bad.



A two-parter! He said he was into ‘kinky sex’ while i casually asked him what some of his other interests were. I asked him to what degree and he gave me a very vanilla response to which i further tried to explain the actual other aspects of BDSM (something im an advocate of teaching about, including safety, asexuality in BDSM and other topics). He responded with ‘Yuck’ calling my lifestyle and interests as well as what i love teaching about disgusting. Yep. Good Job.


Like he Undertaker….


We’ll finish up with a solid inappropriate message. Oh joy.

Sailor Moon Everyday Life Re-Ment Opening and Review

Published August 6, 2015 by makeuponatightbudget

So my preorder payment couldn’t have kicked in at a worse time but I got my box of Sailor Moon rements. I love rements, I’ve been collecting them ever since I got into rilakkuma. I don’t have many of them because to get to America rements are about 7-15 dollars, while in Japan they cost like $3, which sucks for us. I love cute tiny things so this just kind of took the cake for me and I preordered it in the heat of the moment. This is a bunch of stuff I don’t need but dammit if it isn’t cute. There are usually 8 rements to a set which is what I got. Each rement celebrates the lives of the 5 main sailor scouts, tuxedo mask, and luna and artemis. Ok I probably got this just so I could have miniature versions of their wands. The SM wands have always been my favorite things and I even had one when I was a kid. I have 4 gashopon transformation compacts and a wand. Rement are usually sold as blind boxes so even though I know I have the entire set I have no idea which ones goes first. So it will be an extra surprise.


Front and Back of the boxes

Oke first one opened and IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH IT. GOD THESE ARE SO CUTE!!!

First is Usagi’s and I have to say I love love love this one. The first thing is Usagi’s school bag which  has a cute charm on it. The charm is of her bow with the transformation brooch on it. As before with the wand the brooch has some detailing but it isn’t that great. Might be too hard to do on such a small surface. The bag itself does not open. Second thing is a Mini luna!! The paint job could’ve been a little better on her but otherwise she looked adorable. Next is the piece of Usagi toast that has a little bite taken out of it. The bunny iself is printed a little crooked on the bread but the texture and shading of it is very nice. Then there’s a magazine of some sort that has Sailor moon on it. I think this could’ve been better used for something else. Like instead of the magazine her actual compact or another food item, her handkerchief. It just doesn’t seem to connect with Usagi that much. Last is the transformation pen which i think looks better then the other transformation wands. Probably because it’s design is very simple and doesn’t need all the extra fine detailing. The paper has a screenshot of the rankings for the Sailor V video game I give this one a 4/5.PhotoGrid_1438822643450

Second one I opened  was Mercury’s which is number two in the set. it comes with two books and a band to hold them, the transformation wand, a pen, three cookies and a pencil case. The two books are a Science textbook and an English dictionary. You stack both books together(dictionary on top) then put the blue band around it which has mercury’s symbol. The transformation wand is definitely bigger then I expected but not as detailed which sucks. They’re a little on the plain side. The pen is cute and has a little blue bow on it. The cookies are adorable. I really love them. They even have a bit of texture on the back. My favorite thing is the Mercury symbol on the oval like cookie because it really does look like imperfect icing. The detail and artwork on the pencil case is gorgeous. It’s so beautiful but the hinges are too loose so the top just flaps open and the only thing that can fit in there length wise is the pencil, however the small bow on the pencil prevents it from closing all the way. This is stupid since you think the pencil case would fit the damn pen. On the paper that comes with the package there are two cutouts of notebooks you can make for her:) I give this one a 3.5/5


Now It’s time for Mars! I like this one too because it’s very reflective of her life as a Shinto priestess. The bad thing is I’m not entirely sure what all this stuff is haha. First is an arrow that has small bells on it. There the transformation wand which is similar to Mercury’s. Then there is a stick of dango. These items are so small that it’s difficult for my phone to zoom in on them properly which is annoying me. It hard for me to pick up any details Next is a small wallet that has Rei’s photo ID inside. There’s a small red bow on the outside of the brown wallet. You can pinch the wallet closed but it’s meant to stay open, the plastic is just bendable. There’s a small wooden talisman that has a Mars symbol painted in. it could be like one of the good luck charms they sell at the shrine. Theres a strip of accordion folded paper that has a little sticky tab on the back. You insert the paper into this small booklet. I’m not sure what it’s for though. Last it a paper bag that you assemble which leads me to believe that perhaps this was based on Rei’s life during festival time? Like a combination of school and festival time at the shrine. The bag was a little bit of a pain to assemble. I would suggest creasing all the edges before you fold it to make things easier. The paper has a few extra talismans that Rei uses, especially the paper talisman’s where she sayd “Evil spirits, disperse!” as per the english dub.


Next is Makoto. I like hers because it’s food related! Jupiter is my absolute favorite Sailor scout. I’ve always liked her because she was tough yet gentle, strong, smart, a little goofy and loved to eat. Her set has a cute little benton box that comes with rice balls, tamago and and octopus shaped mini dog. There’s the bento box, a rose designed thermos(the cap does come off), a decorative case for the fork(I’m upset that chopsticks didn’t come with it. usually a case has a spoon, fork, and chopsticks). I arranged the bento as best as I could. The top of the box has a rose design but it’s the same pink color as the rest of the box so it doesnt really stand out. I wish It was painted red and green for the leaves. The case has the same design only smaller and it’s painted a darker pink which really helps. They should’ve tied that in together more.The transformation wand is ok as well. The bonus material on the paper is like a printed napkin/possibly the cloth or bag that you usually tie around your bento but the paper is probably too small too be wrapped around the bento box. It could also just be a napkin of sorts. There is also a printed notebook design. Overall I would give this a 3/5 because while cooking is one of Makoto’s main passions she also likes a lot of other things. I think a combination of her hobbies would’ve been best. Kind of like how Rei’s was.


Next is Venus. I really like this one but also its the exact same as Usagi’s. A bag, Artemis, a magazine, transformation pen, a food item. Not at all creative though I do like the bag more. The design is more appealing i suppose but honestly this one is boring because it’s the same thing. Even the bonus paper has the same screenshot of the Sailor V video game. The only extra thing is a crepe paper to go around the crepe. 2.5/5.


Ok Rini’s has got to be my favorite. It is just absolutely too adorable. You have the Luna P ball which is the best looking transformation item of the bunch, a bunny plushie, a lollipop, the time key, a small pink bag, and a locket that opens. The best part is that the extras on the paper has a picture of Usagi and Mamoru to put in the locket!!! I died. This one is jsut so cute. I absolutely love it. I’m afraid I’ll lose the key though. It’s not attached to anything at all. The locket is my favorite thing in her set. That is just too perfect.

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The next set is a happy birthday set. Not sure who’s birthday it is but it is super cute none the less. The moon is vanilla and in the shape of a moon! There’s a chocolate luna cake topper and a white chocolate artemis cake topper. There’s also a stand for the cake, 2 champagne glasses and rose crown (which I’m assuming is like a birthday tiara, and a bottle of “sparkling juice” which we all know is champagne. On the paper there’s a circle with the planetary symbols on it. I think this is like a mat that goes underneath the cake or you can set up the two glasses and bottle on it. There’s also a happy birthday card. 4/5


Last is Tuxedo Masks. This I think is more like a date night for him and Usagi and not about Tuxedo Mask at all. The only things that’s really his is the star locket. The set comes with a glass with an insertable juice drink and straw, a chocolate ice cream Tuxedo Mask desserts, two crescent moon spoons, a bouquet of roses and the star locket. The paper has two tickets to something and a napkin for the ice cream. Since the juice and straw is removeable its hard to keep it in the glass. I think the tuxedo ice cream is so cute! It even has little TM glasses and a top hat out of chocolate. Oddly enough my favorite things are the crescent moon shaped spoons. It the little attention to detail that gets me. 4/5.


Overall there were some ups and downs and things that could’ve been done better. But I am glad I purchased it. Now I just need a way to display it all. I’m thinking about getting a shadow box to hang on the wall or something!


Published June 27, 2015 by makeuponatightbudget

In an amazing landmark Supreme Court decision,Marriage Equality is legal across all 50 states. I’ve never been so happy for America in my life. Now, I could always get married to a man but it wasn’t until yesterday that I could marry whoever else I wanted. I learned about the good new when I was at work and was pretty much sobbing at my cubicle. Lots of happy tears that day. I called my mom too and told her that I could get married now. She was happy for me but told me I needed to get married in someplace warm like Hawaii instead of Ohio, typical mom:P

In a great out pour of support, a lot of people shared the great news on Facebook, shared pictures, and even changed their profile picture to that of a transparent rainbow flag. I personally thought the transparent flag looked dumb so i found a picture of a rainbow cat instead and made that my profile picture. It suited me better anyway! I also wrote an “official” magazine article for my online LGBTQ+ magazine, Out of This World Magazine. Please check it out an support me!